Just .........Feeling Lonely!!!!!!

 

I don’t know what has happened today. I am feeling as if I am not getting enough oxygen to breathe. Just feeling miserable. I am lying on my bed; just looking at the ceiling seeing the fan rotating. I turned my eyes to see what the exact time is.  It was around 1.30 am in the morning, n I was still wide awake although I was tired of full days work. “Oh no !!!! Not again, I don’t want to have another sleepless night”, thinking this I closed my eyes to sleep. But it was very difficult for me to close my eyes. Certain memories and thoughts were just killing me inside n I felt as If they were stealing away my sleep. Uhhhhhffff!!!!! I don’t want to recall it.

I got up n went to Kitchen prepared a cup of coffee in the late hour of night. Carrying the coffee mug I went outside my balcony, to observe, what my companion of solitude, the night, have in store for me. It was so calm, so quite. Not a single soul was awake, even the trees seemed to be in deep slumber. I felt so jealous, and asked myself, why I can’t be so lucky…..

It seemed to me as if the night was trying to speak something, but what….???Was it sympathizing my condition?  I looked at the roads…. it was also lonely n tired … just like me. It seemed to be waiting for the dawn to break, which would bring an end to its loneliness. I wished I could just walk down those lonely roads, and just walk, trying to figure out what life wanted from me…

I looked up to sky; I felt as if the moon was laughing at me through the clouds. But why? Was it criticizing me…, but it was also alone in the vast sky, there were no stars to accompany it. May be it knew that someday they will be twinkling with it, but maybe I would be left alone, like always...

With my last sip of coffee being finished, I brought back myself to reality, from the web of my unending mysterious thoughts. I went back to my bed to sleep, waiting for the sun to rise and to bring an end to my loneliness. 

Was I dreaming about Vampire or a Cute, Sweet, Friend??? Confused…!!!!

It was around 1.00am, I guess. Although I was tired from the day’s work, I was still wide awake, sitting, holding my laptop in my lap, just writing a useless blog, wid a useless topic ‘Direct Dil se -2”. When I closed my eyes, I simply don’t know. Few days back I visited one of my close friend profile in face book. But, I didn’t found any name on it. After refreshing the page again n again, finally the name was displayed, it was Sony’s profile.

I don’t know why C was in my dream, but U would b surprised to see d profile pic, my friend had kept d profile pic as Vampire. Ohhh!!! Horrible, I saw d vampire not so clearly, still her face was visible to me. D Vampire had black eyes, which was shining, few hairs which was covering half one side of her face. Pic depicted dat c had killed some as her mouth was full of blood. I was just horrified, n very much afraid, I don’t remember what made me wake up, from this horrified dream, and I just woke up with a sudden thrash. Uhhhhffff!!!! I was sweating, although the AC was on. I was afraid. I drank water, checked the time, it was 2.45am. Taking the name of Sai Baba, I went to bed.

 I saw dat I was visiting the Sony’s profile again, but dis time it was different. It showed all information about Sony. Profile pic was just auwsum, It was as beautiful as a Rose flower. It was enough for me to fall in love wid it. A Cute Smiling pic, which depicted Purity, Sincerity, Trust Worthiness, all inbuilt qualities. I saw many friends giving comments d pic. I too wanted to give some comment but I wasn’t able to. I kept looking to dat pic as if c was my……….. To my surprise she was online, I wanted to sit beside her, so dat I can have a word wid her, I wanted her number too, suddenly the alarm clock started ringing. Ahhhhhhh!!!!!

Closing my eyes, I just stopped that bastard alarm clock, but after 3 minutes it started ringing again, N I woke up n saw it was 4.45 am. I saw that my laptop was still on. I had wriiten half blog only, n had kept it aside my bed. I was sad becuase I lost dat dream, n that sweet pic.

I was totally confused, was I dreaming about Vampire or a Cute Sweet friend. I was thinking myself who is dis Sony, as I didn’t have any friend named Sony in my face book profile.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
  
 



Still Dreaming......

Ohhhhh Shit!!!! Idiot.. It was dream…… 

Hence Forth No Messages!!!……….But, Will Miss U.

I think all of u r confused wid d statement. Have patience, I will let u know.

Since last year…I m addicted to face book a little more. I have a hobby of updating my fb profile always. I always do some or d other thing so dat profiles will b updated. Like sending request to my close friend, adding some favorite books, updating my home town, all sorts of nonsense things, which does not have any meaning at all. Once u r in my friend list u can easily come to know. I chat with my friends a lot. We discuss different kinds of subject matter like some political issues, cracks some jokes, tag some beautiful pics of our friends; give some comments to our friends who have their gf’s n lot more of. I do hell lot of masti, If I describe them, then it would be like writing a Ramayana or Mahabharata.

I have a close friend, u can’t call like that close, but I treat (her) as a close friend. We became friends…unknowingly. Both of us neither knew each other, but still today, we r good friends. Sometimes 2 unknown friends becomes best friend in future. (Har samaya yeh nahin hota hai), if I m not wrong. I m always online, u can say 365*24*7, but she comes online often. I like to share my thought wid her. sometimes c gives a better suggestion to me also, if I m in need. I had once asked her when c comes online, but her answer was such, u won’t like to ask it again. But however….I always send messages through face book, when c is offline. C replies to it. This medium of communication has been continuing since we have become friends. Although I never dared to asked her number….but still I treated my face book as my mobile phone. Whatever messages c sends, it is stored in the inbox. Rather I would tell my face book accounts works like a mobile phone.

I m rather addicted to send messages to her every day. If I don’t get time to send messages due to my busy schedule, I feel very awkward. She replies to my messages sincerely dats the positive point which c has, n which I like d most. Sometimes it takes 3 days to get a reply, but still  message comes. Although c does not come online, our friendship continues wid this mobile face book messages.

Now the question comes...how long dis sending message would continue?? I have got my first job in Noida, through campus selection. N sending messages to my sweet n cute lovely friend will not continue hence forth. I will b busy in my work.  Tears roll down from my eyes when I think of dis beautiful friendship, which has lasted since a year. I m afraid, will dis friendship continue or not. I have just few memories left with me which will always remind of this beautiful message friendship. I will miss it. But will c miss it?

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Y r u asking me? It would  b better if u ask her….



Miss U.

Lost n Found Again....!!!!!!!

I Have Found Out My Best Pal

 Sometimes when I sit idle, n listen to some romantic music, I just imagine how life will b without the electronic gadgets that we use today in our day to day life,... life will b just fish out of water. It would b just disgusting. Sometimes we curse ourselves that we r up to date on our mail or it may so happen dat we r not regular in touch with friends cuz we dun not have a net connection...but really this whole thing of socializing and keeping in contact with people is one prime reason for networking sites... face book makes us free in searching people ... and dat’s what u need when ur a long lost person in this world and u wanna come in terms with ur old buddies again.... all u need to do is to create an Orkut or a fb account ... and then dats it ... u are into the virtual world of reality .

It was a Hot Summer Afternoon. As it was Sunday, I was free from all Works, I was sitting inside my room with the Ac on, holding my lappy in my lap, I opened my Face book account after many days and to my bloody surprise I found an old pal of mine has sent me request here... getting all excited to talk to him ... I immediately accepted his request. Den the very next moment I mailed him and den I felt a sense of huge relief of getting back in touch with him after 9 years. This way these social sites are really putting into people's emotions... this is maybe the best use of networking sites. A Best Buddy Lost Is Found Again. 

People use face book for various many, which I m not concerned about ... the fact is dat they are just social networks, which connect people, when they are lost in this huge world. Now-a-days a child of age 5 uses his fb for updating his status....Today all of us are addicted to some of these networking sites.

This friend of mine was in touch with me till class 11th and then no one knew where he was and what he was doing. I tried to search him but it was all in vain. I just knew that he was in Bhubaneswar, as his papa’s job had been transferred. So thanks to fb, I got in touch with him n I m V Happy...A feel good factor arises in our mind, as its always a pleasure of getting back in terms with the person whom u had always wanted to be contact with.... it has been a good day to me today..  n I hope my old pal would reply to my message soon.