A Cute Smile…..Will Cross u d Road Ahead!!!!.....
What do you do when your best friend walks away with the one you loved the most ?
What do you do when your last respite , your gang of friends , break up all of a sudden ?
What do you do when you meet with an accident which almost took your life and leaves you with a scarred face ?
What do you do when your marks go plummeting and you start thinking you are a loser?
What do you do when all of this happen at the same time ?
What do you when you don't have a single soul whom you can call and say "my life is fucked " ?
What do you do when in spite of all this you are supposed to make people laugh while you are crying within ?
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Simply Give up ......
That's precisely what I did a long back. Sometimes life seems to be so cruel that it keeps delivering blows one after the other . I fell down , and it hurts, a lot, While I tried to stand up . There was yet another blow. Much stronger and more painful . I still tried to stand. But only to be put down by yet another blow . I didn't know what to do . I was lost . Someone told me "never love someone with all your heart . It hurts " .. I laughed. But now everything had changed. It really hurts. And for once I couldn't rebuff it since I knew the pain . Days passed with the strange loneliness and the stone like heart getting even more harder.
It was yet another day in the month of May, when I was in Bhubaneswar, I don’t exactly remember when I first saw her, it was something like….!!! Can’t express that moment. Salty tears rolls down from my eyes. I hear my own voice from the speakers at the corner of my room . And slowly as I got lost in the music, I looked out through the balcony , staring at my orphaned dust coated unicorn, which looked like a lost soul searching for an oasis in the middle of the desert .
What do you do when your last respite , your gang of friends , break up all of a sudden ?
What do you do when you meet with an accident which almost took your life and leaves you with a scarred face ?
What do you do when your marks go plummeting and you start thinking you are a loser?
What do you do when all of this happen at the same time ?
What do you when you don't have a single soul whom you can call and say "my life is fucked " ?
What do you do when in spite of all this you are supposed to make people laugh while you are crying within ?
..........
Simply Give up ......
That's precisely what I did a long back. Sometimes life seems to be so cruel that it keeps delivering blows one after the other . I fell down , and it hurts, a lot, While I tried to stand up . There was yet another blow. Much stronger and more painful . I still tried to stand. But only to be put down by yet another blow . I didn't know what to do . I was lost . Someone told me "never love someone with all your heart . It hurts " .. I laughed. But now everything had changed. It really hurts. And for once I couldn't rebuff it since I knew the pain . Days passed with the strange loneliness and the stone like heart getting even more harder.
It was yet another day in the month of May, when I was in Bhubaneswar, I don’t exactly remember when I first saw her, it was something like….!!! Can’t express that moment. Salty tears rolls down from my eyes. I hear my own voice from the speakers at the corner of my room . And slowly as I got lost in the music, I looked out through the balcony , staring at my orphaned dust coated unicorn, which looked like a lost soul searching for an oasis in the middle of the desert .
A year back it meant the whole life to me . I still remember the way I used to come online, though my exams were on my head, Although she was not in front of me I was in such an hallucination that she was infront me. We used to do lot of masti. That was some thing ridiculous, but was enjoyable . A mad fellow Indeed!!.
The feelings of joy that I got the first time I gave the throttle ,the silent sound it made when it started , The feeling of falling in love with some one whom you have never seen in real life, was something unusual. My friends suggested me many a times, still I committed a blunder which hurts me a lot today. The way we used to chat , in messages were simply priceless...." Honey I am not going to forget you after all I still do love you " I thought to myself trying to push aside the loneliness which had engulfed me .
It has been since many days since I shared my feelings, in blogs.
A few minutes later, it was me , taking a ride through the roads of heaven or so it felt . The sun shone brightly , the traffic snared and I slowly stopped my Car, in the traffic , as the signal was red. Each and every vehicle consoling each other and the much needed hope seemed to be coming from each other . All came to halt as the lights were red.
I stopped my AC, as I felt some kind of uneasy, I felt as if....... . I opened my car’s window, to breath the nature's purest fresh air. The heart beats stopped for a second . A waft of cool breeze scurried across the hot afternoon and swept across me. Standing at the front of the signal right across me on the other side was someone in a red scooty . A churidhar which was a combination of blue and white , lovely brown eyes , curved eyebrows , a flawless perfection which took the form of her face , the silky black hair that seemed to flow and a cute nose . Well that was the nearest , I ever will get to see God . She casually kept playing with her hair as my heart fluttered, I prayed that she should take her left since I was going that way and that would mean I could savor her beauty for a few more precious minutes . The signal turned green for her . I waited with bated breath . She slowly gave the throttle and the angel just went past me . And as unlucky as I could get , she took her right . But while she passed across me , she turned maybe for a second or lesser than that , and she gave a smile . Must have been the mildest version of a smile but still she gave smile . I fell in love instantaneously . Slowly she faded as the distance between us grew and she merged with the traffic . "honk" a loud noice brought me back to life and I gave my throttle and slowly crossed the signal taking the right , exactly the opposite road she had taken .
Well ,though , this was probably the shortest love story I ever had or would probably not qualify for a story but it taught me one important thing . I still could love. I could love with the same passion and intensity though it was just for a minute . Hope was back again. There still was more to life beyond what I was seeing . And though the entire world I personally knew had given up on me , a smile from mysterious stranger had brought me back to life . How strange , but how true ....
Sometimes even the smallest of gestures from a stranger can completely change your life . So whatever be the problems in our life never forget to smile . You never know who might be falling in love with your smile . And irrespective of whether you are black , white , ugly , fat, lean , tall , short or anything else , the remedy is not in a fairness cream or a weight loss medicine , its much more cheaper and easily available . Its in your smile . Just a simple , straight-from-the-heart smile and you are the most beautiful person on the world . And you never know whose life you might just be changing .
So , keep smiling , come what may...
P.S.
It's been ……. Years and I still search for her everytime I cross the signal and maybe one fine day....................(smiles...)
Keep Smiling!!!! |
all da best...hope u ll c hr again.. :)
ReplyDeleteNo Ipsita.....its Not possible....
DeleteIts too late...
m speechless at dis wonderful portrayal of one's heartiest emmotions
ReplyDeletem in love wid dis article
Good Work Jajati
keep it up
Thnks Afreen!!
DeleteA marvellous piece!! Evn i blv dt a smyl is a curve which makes evrythng straight.Hope u meet ur angel soon:)
ReplyDeleteThnks 4 d compliment!!!.
DeleteUmid pe duniya kamyam hai...So Hope 4 d Best.
dear everything happens for a reason ,n ur the best person n my real frnd with whom i share my feeling n felt gud thx for ur lovely frndship
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